Behind Somatic Waves
Every wave begins with an undercurrent.
Somatic Waves began with mine. The hidden currents of burnout, loss, and the deep ache for reconnection. This page is about the path that carried me to this point in my life, and why I am devoted to holding this work for others..
My Journey:
From Disconnection to Deep Transformation.
There was a time in my life when I felt completely disconnected, from myself, my purpose, and the world around me. On paper, I had done it "right." I had worked my way up in different careers, achieved financial stability, and followed the path that many would consider a success, and I was lucky to have it. And yet, beneath the surface, I had lost myself.
Looking back, I can now see how every step, the challenges, the heartbreaks, and the awakenings, were actually guiding me back to myself. Each moment was preparing me for the next step toward my purpose. But at the time, all I knew was that something was very off,
and it had to change.
Creativity, Intuition
& the Early Years
I was raised in a home where creativity and imagination were cherished. Growing up in a small town in Finland, I was encouraged to spend time in nature, connect with the land, and express myself through art. I was a quiet child, often turning inward, reflecting, and trying to make sense of big emotions I didn’t yet have the words for.
Creativity became a way to process and express myself without any words. Art, movement, and time in nature became places where I felt most like myself.
So creativity became my ticket out into the world, my escape, and it led me to study contemporary art and photography. I was free to express my inner world, explored ways to capture emotion, atmosphere, and the subtleties of human experience.
After years of studying, I thought my path was set. I had planned to continue my photography studies in London. But a spontaneous trip to Dublin one spring, changed my trajectory. Something about Ireland called to my soul, and soon, I had scrapped my plans and followed my intuition to begin a new chapter there.
Losing Myself in the Hustle
After a few carefree years, frolicking as an au pair in Dublin, I - like many others - fell into the rhythm of “making a living.”
First came retail, where I worked my way up from a shy sales assistant to confidently managing stores and teams. I loved living in this world as it still gave me a sense of freedom, but eventually I grew restless and cracks of toxic environments started to show. I knew it was time to move on.
Then came the corporate world, a path younger me would never have imagined, I started in an entry level position but soon found myself promoting up to managing global client accounts, chasing the high of career growth, and stability.
Retail had pushed me to step out of my comfort zone, teaching me resilience and leadership. Corporate life offered me security and financial gain, all wrapped up in the illusion of “work-life balance.” But it came at a cost I hadn’t anticipated.
At first, I was just grateful for the stability, and excited about all the life perks that came with this career move. But as time went on, chronic stress and anxiety became my trusted companions. I even found myself casually searching online for “heart attack symptoms”. I was experiencing intense emotional lows and anxiety, but throughout my life I had learned how to mask, learned what feelings were were socially acceptable, and my brain pressed on the auto pilot function, high-functioning burnout became my norm. It had quietly evolved over these years, just as my career success, perhaps thats why I didn't fully acknowledge it. I convinced myself this was just life. And I was “successful,” wasn’t I?
But it was different this time, I had lost a connection to myself along the way, and so lost my natural ability to regulate. I was silently drowning in heavy waters of exhaustion and disconnection. It became impossible to ignore but I didn't know how to change. During this time me and my partner also experienced a traumatic car accident while travelling abroad, it required a lot of recovery, both physical and emotional, perhaps it was the universe forcing me to finally pause. But I didn't, I hardly took any time off fat all. Instead I carried on, with a lingering concussion and nausea accompanying me, I gave my energy to work, to client meetings, to KPIs, to projects, to chasing revenue. I didn't listen to my body this time either.
So, being part of a sudden company wide redundancy became an unexpected life line, it forced me to finally pause in a way I hadn’t allowed myself to before. Not to be dramatic, but it probably saved my life.
Returning to the Body
And what followed then was a slow, sometimes frustrating, and painstaking process of rebuilding my relationship with myself. I started with simple things, like allowing myself to just slow down.
I began craving time in nature, I desperately felt the need to be grounded, quite literally, I wanted to be absorbed by the earth, by the greenery of spring sprouting around me. I think this was my bodys desperate call to finally start regulating my nervous system.
And for the first time, in a very long time, I began to notice the connection between my internal state and my physical experience. I reflected on the last few years, and could clearly see how patterns or stress, overwhelm, anxiety and depression had showed up in my body and in my reality. I could feel a longing to connect with myself again, and with this also came a period of grieving the loss of myself, and I yearned to find and connect with her again. It was like learning how to walk again.
I realised that a change wouldn't come with just thoughts alone, I had to learn how to stay safe in my body, and to build trust with myself again.
So I set out to learn about the body’s own intelligence, becoming curious about how emotions and patterns lived within me, how to be present and listen to the subtle sign-language of my body, as I could now understand that lasting change couldn’t come from the mind alone. This was a lesson I learned when I found myself looping back into old patterns of self-destruction. But at least I was now aware of them.
These realisations guided me toward practices that would later become cornerstones in my life, Somatic Awareness, Movement, Breathwork, and Energy Healing. At first, they were ways of remembering what safety, presence, and aliveness actually felt like. And as my body began to feel safer, I was relieved to realise the noise in my head had stopped.
And piece by piece, I also began to remember and connect more deeply with earlier parts of myself, including younger experiences that had shaped how I experience and moved through the world, when I allowed my intuition to guide me.
This became an important part of the process, and for the first time in years, I gave myself permission to awaken these dormant parts of me again, to trust where they might lead, even if I didn’t yet know the path. This also meant that the person I had become over the last decade or so, was about to be dismantled.
I am forever grateful that I have such a supportive partner, and I know these times were very confusing for her, she struggled to understand my choices and the journey I was on. Because for the longest time I struggled to verbalise what was going on with me, in a way that would have made sense to her. I also never let her into how deep in a depression I had been before the redundancy and how much it affected who I was. The inability to sufficiently communicate emotions, to be vulnerable and allow people in, is something that followed me from childhood, and that I would soon come to learn and address during this journey.
Connecting with myself again came with so many layers, often extreme shifts from one side to another before the weighing scales finally started balance out, and I don't blame her for not understanding, for being worried and concerned, angry and possibly resentful at times as I regretfully did shut her out more than I realised during this time. But it wasn't because I didn't trust her, I just didn't yet trust myself of know myself.
Where the Paths Lead You
On this journey I have come to realise, over and over again, that healing doesn’t happen in a straight line. It truly does unfold in layers, sometimes it happens subconsciously where our body releases in tears and we don't know why, and sometimes the process can be both physically and emotionally painful to experience. Each step, each practice, each teacher arrives at exactly the right time, bringing new awareness and another piece of the puzzle, if we only allow it to happen.
I explored the unseen layers of our energetic bodies through Reiki, Angelic and Shamanic healing modalities. Something I have been drawn to, and fascinated by since a very young age. And memories of exploring energetic work back in my art days started coming back to me, a homecoming of a dear friend in it's own way.
I also come to experience energetic work in a completely new way through Kundalini Yoga. I have practices many different type of lineages when it comes to yoga, but this for me was different. The flowing kryas' took me by surprise, they were beautifully, and powerfully, incorporating chanting mantras and breathwork that allowed my body to release in a new way. I would be sitting in a meditative state, doing breath of fire, with tears flowing down my face without knowing why. But after each session I felt different, I could feel my energy moving in me and around me, it was a new sensation and I quickly became addicted and curious.
I got curious about the energetic connection between our bodies and emotions. Where the energetic meets the physical and emotional. This was not a new concept for me by any means, but kundalini yoga had open up my eyes to it in a new way. I dived into deeper studies about the nervous system and trauma responses, reading books, following podcasts and finally taking a course on trauma informed awareness in coaching. I was also fascinated by TCM and how emotions are intimately linked with our bodies, our organs and our physical health. I could easily spend my life content with reading and studying these topics.
The Science of Breath
But part of this journey was also about getting to know myself, trusting in my own intuition, where was I being pulled. For a while I was contemplating taking a Kundalini Yoga Teacher training, but I realised that while I had a love for this beautiful modality, it was at core the Breathwork that pulled me in a different direction. To be honest, it was actually my partner who once brought up that I should do Breathwork once when I was talking about how I would one day love to host summer solstice retreats for women and she said I could even consider doing Breathwork. At the time I could not see how I would get to that point, it seemed unreachable and so far away.
But, here I was, Brathwork had found me, and with this came facilitator training.
The Green Tara College in Dublin dropped in my lap one day. They were offering a course that for me ticked all the boxes. It turned out our teacher- Kamel - though coming from a scientific background, was an initiated Shaman from the Quechuan tradition in Peru, he brought his traditions and wisdom, alongside his training within Soma and Pranayama Breathwork, into a welcoming and powerful blend of deep Conscious Connected Breath and ceremony. Though I have deep reverence for Kamel's lineage and traditions, and I am truly blessed to have been invited into the shamanic elements of his teachings, I do not bring any shamanic elements to my own client sessions, only the beautiful core of his Breathwork journey which is profound in itself.
During reathwork became a teacher that opened me up to the depths of emotions and states our bodies can travel to. Much like Kundalini had taught me, it was about tuning in and allowing ourselves to feel into our bodies, being present, observing and allowing. To get out of our minds and anchor in to ourselves without judgement. How working with our physical bodies, and being grounded, help us to safely work through through layers of emotional blocks. And I learned that this is the actual key to unlocking our mind and consciousness to new levels.
From the outside in, this all might seem very "woo Woo" but in truth it is very much a practice of being brave and deeply connecting to your body, understanding and truly knowing yourself. Being honest with yourself, and not afraid to witness your own shadows, and not searching outside of yourself for answers. THIS is the Spiritual Experience, it is messy, imperfect, but so beautiful, and so human.
A Deeper Layer of Change
As I was completing my BW practitioner training, I was also already immersed in a new corporate job role. Who could've guessed.
But I had been blessed with the time I needed to reset and regulate my nervous system, and find myself again. And this time, corporate life was different. I felt in control of my body and emotions, how I experienced and reacted to a new environment and stress that comes with the job. During this new time in the corporate world, apart from completing and practicing Breathwork, I was still on a learning journey of wanting to understand how our experiences and emotions imprint on the body, how it shapes our patterns and even our health.
This exploration also brought me to SpinalFlow, which felt like another missing piece in this puzzle. It was energy work but not from an external source like Reiki, but it focuses on working directly with the body’s own natural life force that flows through us. I attended an Immersive training where we were all our own practitioners and clients, an intense week of experiencing receiving SF and practice it on each other. I was truly in awe of of how amazing our bodies own intelligence is if given the right conditions, what I saw and experienced first hand I had not expected. Although I've always loved energy work like Reiki and other modalities, and still practice this, SF allowed for a new element which allows us to connect directly with the body, the web that is our nervous system which is deeply protected by our spinal cord.
This Immersion was a valuable experience for my own journey of healing trauma, and finding an even deeper connection to myself. It was during this Immersive experience where I finally met my wounded Inner Child, and allowed myself to feel her pain, to listen and understand.
As a "Practitioner" it was also an amazing learning experience, though I was only training and did not complete the full certification. Life can take unexpected paths, and we constantly evaluate our options and directions. But one day maybe I will complete this beautiful modality, and officially bring it to my clients once more.
Finding what works for you
It might seem like I have jumped from one modality to another, finding the next thing that will "heal" me. But all of this did not happen overnight, not even a few weeks or a few month. The journey I am describing came through over a few years. I was not chasing the next "spiritual high", the next practitioner who would "fix me". (Although, I am familiar with this pattern)
I entered every practice, every modality, every experience, with thought and care, with awareness and embodiment.
My intention was always to allow myself to release what was meant to be shed at that time, there is no "one modality fits all", because just as every modality is different, so are we as people and we change and evolve, and the trauma and blocked emotional experiences in our bodies all release in different ways, and when the time is right.
Each step, and each layer matters, one by one they bring you closer to remembering who you already are, and the most important transformations happens in between the sessions, when our bodies are given the time and space to integrate and feel into the shifts that are occurring within us. This space, the in-between, is almost more important than the healing session itself, this is why it plays such an important role in my own work as a Somatic Practitioner, I know that sometimes we need support and for someone to hold space for us during the in-between.
Where I Am Today
Today, I hold space for others to embark on their own healing journeys, just as I once did for myself. Through Gentle Touch, Guided Breath Journeys, Energetic Alignment and Trauma-Informed care, I support the Nervous System in finding safety, the body in releasing held patterns, and the spirit in reconnecting with its true light.
This journey is about coming home to yourself. It’s about learning how to observe your shadows and release them with compassion. Remembering who you are beneath the layers of stress, conditioning, and disconnection. To explore the in-between spaces where true transformation takes root.
If you feel the call to begin, know this:
You already hold everything you need within you.
I’m simply here to hold space as you remember.
Like carefully balanced stones on the shore, each truth holds its place.
Grounding me, guiding me, and rising together in harmony.
Not sure where to Begin?
Why not check out Why Somatic Healing, My core Building Blocks and Why Work With Me.
